Fear vs. Trust

Can you have trust and fear at the same time?

While I reflected in my last post on my natural trust in other people, there seem to be other areas in my life where I definitely lack trust and am actually quite fearful.

Analysing that more carefully, most of these issues seem to come down to a lack of trust in myself.

Damn it! I somehow knew I would end up here – again.

What is it with us women and this lack of confidence in our own abilities?

Or more precisely, what is it with me?

I tend to think of myself as quite self-assured and quite open to taking risks but to tell the truth, there are still many areas that seem far too far out of my comfort zone. Unfortunately those are the areas where my heart longs to go to the most.

I guess we all have our own comfort zones and limits as to how far out we trust ourselves to go.

Personally, I think I’ve come to a point where it’s time to push that limit again.

I’m terrified, though.

Strangely, however, right now, I’m glad Tony isn’t here and that I am alone in this battle with myself because I’m able to hear myself more clearly. I’m not influenced by Tony’s thoughts and opinions. It’s just my mind and my heart.

Whether that makes it easier or not, we’ll see. I’ll keep you posted.