Today
I’m fed up. I feel like a hamster in a hamster wheel: busy running without ever
getting anywhere.
It
feels like this is how my life has always been and is always going to be. The
mountain of things to do is growing and growing and no matter how hard I work I
don’t ever seem to catch up or get on top of things. It sometimes feels like
someone purposely designed it that way. To keep us busy and stop us from thinking
too much. We might decide to want more out of life if we stopped and thought
about it. Hell, I know I do!
I
feel one of “my phases” coming on. I could quite easily just leave everything
behind and run off somewhere. I don’t care where to or how it’s going to work
out there as long as I get a break from all this. Flippin’ heck!
Would
it make a difference if Tony were here? I don’t know. I’d probably just get
angry with him for reminding me that running away isn’t the answer.
Stay calm, Dani. Accept that is how you feel, look at it and don't fight it. If you, at your age, feel as though you are on a treadmill, you can imagine how tired I feel! I spent most of my working life trying harder and harder, then I fell off the wheel. In retrospect, I can see how I had let it get like that. If you look back, carefully, you will see that you have achieved loads. And, Tony would be right, runnning away is not the answer. Remember my acronym DROPSS - don't resist or push, soften and smile. And most important, try not to be a perfectionist. xxx
ReplyDeleteI love your acronym, Jacqui :-) How do you know about my perfectionist tendencies? ;-) Thanks for reminding me of what I needed reminding of. We must indeed catch up for a proper chat over a cup of coffee soon xxx
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